A year ago this past August, just three months after appointment, I was at WV for training and you and I spent an exhausting couple hours together talking about a multitude of things. Still raw, it did not take much to get inside the walls. But you are a pro! Each of our talks bring many key truths to mind, but as I was processing some the family history and how to get inside of it all, something you said to me came to mind. During this particular discussion you and I were wrestling (well I was likely wrestling and you, already aware, had the joy of watching…=0) ) with the idea of accessing the things I need to understand about my past. I was attempting to convince you, with no success, that those memories were not there anymore. Maybe you remember. You do possess an ability to get under my tough skin pretty easy. As I was trying to keep my composure and hold back the floodgates, as you were getting dangerously close to apparently some still open wounds, you said something like this to me. "Jodi you see this place you are so desperately trying to hold back, that is exactly where you need to go. That is where you will find what you need. You need to go in those tough places." Do you remember?
Well, this morning, I was thinking through the sea of memories and continuing my internal argument on the best way discover truth, I realized that these memories that are surfacing are my access to these places—my key to unlocking the truth. It is a struggle to drudge up all the dirty details and experiences but, doing so opens the doors to that hidden girl and all the buried "treasure."
This is getting serious…I am a master of the obvious! More to come…
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